I Am the Wind...The Feelings Within Me

Sometimes we keep on asking why things turned out that way?  Why our good intentions sometimes get negative feedback and reactions on others?  Never in my life did I have bad intentions but most of the time I am being misinterpreted by a lot of people... been politicized and tried to be crushed and put down the drain.  Lei said that maybe because I am too kind and understanding and this is the same reason what Ivy had told me.

I had a very hard past life and that is still being continued everyday of my life.  It is as if a continous battle of living each day.  It requires my full strength and energy to survive each moment of my life and to tell myself that indeed a day had been great and that I had made a difference.  I have a lot of very good friends and I treasure them all to the extent that it is better that I get hurt rather than those that I love so much.

The depression and sadness that is waiting to succumb me is so intense and that is why I keep on holding on... I keep on believing that I am still worth it... that people still need me and that I do made a difference in their lives.  Sometimes I just think that it is better to be inexistent so that I can finally rest for in everyday I do threat it as my last that is why I always do my best... but most of the time I rather be alive and cherish the persons that are very important to me.

Who are those and what are those that are important to me:

• My children: John Dwight, Helen Cleodara and David Jr.  They are the light and the inspiration that kept me breathing each day and that makes me stronger by the second
• MEI SANTIAGO. The only woman that I will love all my life and the one that accepted me for who I am... completely without ifs and buts
• BROOD.  It gives me hope, companionship and the family that I have longed for in many years
• MY SPECIAL and CLOSE FRIENDS. These people make me stonger and with them I can share my stories, my heartached and my feelings... they too complete me for if not for them I will be insane.

This is the very reason why I am so attached to the song from Castlevania, I AM THE WIND... this is the thinking and the emotions that I have for so long been holding...

Just like the wind,
I've always been
Drifting high up in the sky that never ends
Through thick and thin,
I always win
'Cause I would fight both life and death to save a friend

I face my destiny every day I live
And the best in me is all I have to give

Just like the sun (Just like the sun)
When my day's done
Sometimes I don't like the person I've become
Is the enemy within a thousand men?
Should I walk the path if my world's so dead ahead?

Is someone testing me every day I live?
Well, the best in me is all I have to give

I can pretend (I can pretend)
I am the wind (I am the wind)
And I don't know if I will pass this way again
All things must end
Goodbye, my friend
Think of me when you see the sun or feel the wind

I am the wind,
I am the sun
And one day we'll all be one

I am the wind,
I am the sun
And one day we'll all be one

**INSTRUMENTAL SOLO**

I am the wind,
I am the sun
And one day we'll all be one

I am the wind,
I am the sun
One day we'll all be one

(Repeat to end)

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